Now that Fodie is with us, Jenna and I have four children. In other words, four different orthodontist bills, four different doctor bills, four different sets of clothes, two hotel rooms instead of one when we go on vacation now, four very used vehicles (or one very used vehicle to be handed down as each child turns sixteen...sorry kids), four college tuitions, and someday, four people to share whatever resources we leave behind.
Now that Fodie is with us I am falling in love with her more everyday, but before I ever had any feelings (and even when the feelings I have aren't full of love) I had already legally made her mine and made the choice to give her every right and privilege that my other three children have. This is the Gospel that God has made us co-heirs through and with Christ.
I knew that Fodie's transition into our family would be very difficult. After being with her in Africa for a week in our adoption process, I knew that Fodie would try to make it very hard for us to love her because that was the only way she knew how to protect her fragile little heart that had already been wounded and disappointed so many times. But Jenna and I chose to love her. Not based on anything she had done to deserve our love but based on our choice...and we choose to love her even when she does everything in her power to defy our love. We didn't and don't just choose to take her in, meet her needs, and tolerate her. We chose and choose to love her even on those days where it would be easier to stay detached and guarded so that her rejection of our love doesn't hurt so much. That is the Gospel. It is the choice that God has made and makes daily to not just keep His promise of salvation and His covenant of provision, but to Love us. To truly love us just like He loves Jesus....Just. Like. He. Loves. Jesus.
(picture by Sarah Bridgeman, @sarahjbridgeman)
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